Sometimes you just have to cool down , wipe away your tears & walk away accepting the fact .

Hello Love !! Hehehe , currently texting wif Aloy about stupid things ._. oops , He is showing off to me ><  hehehe ! Im so looking forward to Wednesday . Meeting dear on that day(Y) ! Winkwink , finally can spend time with him again !! IMISSHIM ! & he always give me late reply >:( Nb , I hate late reply laa(N) ! Guo fen sial ! .__>   Dear talked to me about marriage , cute uh him :>  & Im thinking how about 两个人的婚礼 ♥ ? Just a wedding that belongs to two person only have two person ? Haaa , sweetsweet right ! JokeJoke!!haaa , He never fail to make me smile♥   SiRen Hongyi , WoAiNi

 

- If only one day , I can lock up your heart & I am the only one holding the key to your heart ♥

The closest one now , May be a total stranger one day .

HeeeHeee :B ! Just reached home not long ago , went to watch kongfu panda . OMGZZX , I am so plug wrong wire rite , I cried bcusz of the movie . Haaa , I Love the movie , Tiger just gave the panda a sudden hug , sweet sweet right , like got honey , MAHAHAHA , JokeJoke ! I wonder , what would the child be like when a panda & tiger marry ? x.x ! Hahaha , I know I am super mad . Had fun today wif Steph , YongZhou , Brian , Vicki , YunHui , Ck , MeiJuan , Minqi - ♥ ! LOL .. Took bus back with Ck and guess what , this stupid guy hack into my account !:( Now I know your Iphone Password better be careful ! Haaa ! Had a great day today .

- Hongyi , Heartty , IMissyouu :( Hopefully can faster find time to meet my dear♥  

Hello dear , Let me share a secret wif you ? Shhh kays . ILoveyouuu♥

Friday 27/05/2011 I came down to look for dearr and I spent my whole 23hours wif him . Like ge sweet only , Heehee JokeJoke !! Had a great time wif him , the moments wif him even though there was some moment when the both of us just stare at each other and keep quiet doing nothing but I still find it special because it is with him & guess what ' I miss him now !! I tried to sleep and when i cant , I started talking rubbish to him and yet he still laugh and smile to me at what I have said . Haaa , thankq bbyy for the seaweeds & Minnie Mouse all the things even if it is only a very small thing you have done , it will always be puzzle in my heart .

I been wanting to have a guy that would laugh at my coldest joke when everyone find it stupid .

I been finding a guy that would be able to give me the warmest hug .

I been looking for a guy that would be understanding , let me go by my way .

I been wanting a guy that would laugh & smile at me for every single nonsense I have said .

I been looking for a guy that would get it and catch what I am saying when others dun .

I been wanting a guy that is quiet yet I will find him cute .

I been looking for a guy that would know what I want when I say Idw anything .

I been wanting a guy that would bear with me for my stupidness .

I been looking for a guy that will try his very best just for me . 

I been finding a guy that would bear with me and carry on texting even when I am sending dao text .   

I been asking God for my Mr . Right & guess what ,                     God sent you , I found the guy I been wanting , finding , looking and asking for .

Al thought at times , I find that you dun really understand me , you dun know my silents , sometimes I just get very angry with you wif a reason that I dun even know it myself & this relationship somehow lack of understanding and stuff but I know we been trying our best and putting in effort , I believe things gonna be better day by day , our love will get stronger and stronger as time pass . 

How to be happy when you are feeling down ? How to be laughing and smiling from the bottom of the heart when all you want is to cry & cry ? How to make things right when everything seem to be so wrong ?  How to relax when all you want is to scold that person ? How to be strong when you are so weak ? How to forgive when you cannot forget ? How to pretend nothing happen when everyone knows about it ? Can anyone teach me how to . Laugh , My life fucked up & everything is in a big great mess . 

♥Dear , HAPPY FIRST WEEK !!!  Hehehe ! I LOVE YOU !! Thanks for being an understanding boyfriend ,, I know you been trying and putting in effort in this relationship . I feel your love :]

- Look Into My Eyes & See How Unhappy Am I Really Feeling ,, I may be smiling 24/7 in front of every1 but I asked myself ' Is this smile really from the bottom of my heart ' I question myself M I really happy . At times I just laugh til too hard and too much ' just out of the sudden I wanna cry out loud really loud . I want to cry but I been wasting too much tears ' not much tears left to be drop ' I been staying too weak I need to stay strong . I been trying my best to hold back my tears . I question myself , what's holding me back ? How have I really been recently . At the end , I laugh at myself .

It is when the whole world thinks bad about you & he still wants you ♥ ,

Seriously , Shag . Actually sometimes I just wish that fucking facebook dun exist . Bcuz of facebook , I came to know so much . Seriously , yesterday 4+ am , I was not in the mood . First time feel like drinking when I am down . The worst part was I am not drunk even after drinking . What's wrong like seriously ! Said by his friends , calling me cheap and nasty things . Actually other than angry , Im more to upset . Since you guys hate me so much , you should have just told me earlier . Acting , placing a mask makes you better ? I am sorry but I dun think so uh . I thought that you guys can be trusted as friends but I was wrong . So thanks a lot . You prove me wrong again uhs . I asked Zhuoyi , he gave me 3miss call I guess , I just dun want ans calls , I dun feel like talking , I am not in the mood .  Yes , I admit . I mind about what others say , I care a lot about what others feel . If he didnt tell me straight on facebook . I guess I will know nothing bah. Aaron told me just ignore but how to . My life recently seriously fucked up a lot more than previous .  & oso for those unknown number , please uh , stop spamming me text and stuff .. I HAD ENOUGH LIKE SERIOUSLY . If you wanna talk then say out ur name . After so many , 2011 taught me a lot , let me see through a lot , who is the one that can be trusted and who cant be . Who is my true friends and who is not . LOL , I dun have you this group of friends , I still have others . Sooner or later , I will have another group of friends . What's the different . It is only a matter of time .  I regretted placing my trust on you & believing you , really regretted knowing you - (You should know who am I referring to ) What's wrong wif the people now adays . MotherFreak.

I been asking myself&others .

- Am I really that cheap ? 

- Am I really that annoying ? 

- Am I really toy for everyone to play around ?

♥Hehehe , it is when his friends think bad about you & all he wants is still to be with you . Dear , xiexieni uhs . Making me feel so much loved . Honestly speaking , if it is not for the facebook post , I wont know I mean this much to you . I wont know that how much you really love me . I am glad that I have you , someone that wont mind how others think about me and still wants to be wif me . 

 

You just need to know that I truly care ,,

♥Hehehe , hello ! I am back to blogging , p.s uh :X previously privated my blog . Anw , I had a great time spending with Lynette,Esther,Weiqing,Jiahui, The four important ones in my life . Guess , it been such a long time since I really spend time wif them . Before that either they are busy or I am . Finally get to spend time wif them . Thanks for making my day . Heeheehee , Loves (L)

♥Found this on facebook statues , - Actually I don't want a prince charming that would dance with me all night but let me go at 12. Or spider man that would give me the perfect kiss and yet, hide behind that mask. Or peter pan who will take care of me and fly with me against the wind but whose heart belongs to someone else. I want my own shrek, someone who would love me for all my imperfections, he may not be perfect as well, but he's real . Meaningful right ? Heehee & guess what ' I found you and you are the only one I want + ILoveYou my dear . Although it is only our third day and we started quarreling on the second day but argument is over now(Y) Only after our argument I realized how important and how much you mean to me , I realized , you are much more loved by me than expected . You are the one that make me love again , trying to believe in love again , Xiexieni . We may not know each other for long , maybe at times we will run out of topics to talk but its okay , we still will try our very best right ? I trust you . Our relationship going be better and better day by day . Sorry for not being understanding enough kays , I know the question I asked you may hurt you in the end , I am really very very sorry for that . I promise , no more next time , I wont ask about it le !♥

- No much more tears left to be drop ,,

 

 

I knew it , I shld not fall too deep because I knw I will be ended up crying like now .

Hellooo!! Must be waiting for my blog post right ! Mahahaha!! Okay , start the topic now ! I am not in the mood . I see such a big different la hor , I know maybe ya la , I am xiaoqi , wo hen xiaoqi but then still seriously there is a very big different . I swear , if you are not gonna do anything , I am not gonna bother . we was sms-ing half way , I told you "wo mei you hua shuo le:( " You stopped replying me , what are you trying to tell me by stop replying ? I know maybe I am thinking too much but I just cant stop thinking . I am just that unreasonable , I am not understanding enough . Every time my phone ring , I was hoping that it is you that reply my sms but always it turn out to be other guys text . I tried , stop auto text guys , you said that you will try your best to reply me but I am sorry I just dun feel your effort , maybe last time but no longer now . Its only the first day , things are like this , what's up next ? Can let my heart prepare . I took so much courage to accept you , to step into a relationship ,  trying my very best but what is this ? I dun understand , if its like this then no point right . How should I be feeling ? Happy , sad , emo , angry , nothing ? That's was why i told myself not to give in 100% , not to fall too deep because I know I will be ended up crying like now .

- 无言以对

' I wonder what's on your mind '

Hello , I am back with sickness .... I AM SICK ! Eating crab while having sore throat , how cool it is right ! LOL , Fever , cough , sore throat , stomach pain + headache . I FAILED MY PAPER , Math , El , Sc , His-tory .  It's time for me to wake up... Haish , hehehe. Had a great time during BBQ . Somehow , I still feel smth , Laugh , what's wrong with me? I shld put it aside ! Just now, ,sibei cannot stand ! Zhuoyi called and prank me AGAIN . Laugh , there is a limit to my pranking , dun talk to me about him because that just simply piss me off . Anw , finally spent time with Hy (L) I love every moment that I spent with him , the moments with him , every small talk & every silent moments , thanks for pei-ing me wait til Mrt open , sitting down there with me , walking me to mrt station , xiexie ! Hehehe & oso sorry for airplane - ing you abt the movie uh , not purposely de .  heees ! 

-Interlock♥

 

HONGYI ~ HAPPYBIRTHDAY♥♥♥ ! wo ai ni ;) 

MaLeeLing ! Happie birrhtdayy♥ 

The fact is no one can be innocent forever .

LOL ! Today whole day stay at home . Good girl right ? Hees , I dunno what's wrong with me . I just started crying non-stop . Maybe to you guys , my tears dun worth because I always cry but please note , I cry because I am hurt in my heart deep down I am not happy . Even a fall from the stairs cause me nothing kays . I HATE RELATIONSHIP A LOT A LOT , LIKE SERIOUSLY ..... So many problem . I feel so fucked up sighh . My heart uh , heartty uh , can you be more bad , more strong so that you wont get hurt easily ? You wont be so pain and LAST OF ALL YOU WONT COST ME SO MUCH TEARS ! I wanna be happy , oh god , let me be happy . CAN !? PLEASE LA... Haishhh . I am lost , can anyone help me find the way out of this ? When I fall , please catch me kays♥ ... I am a girl , I will get jealous too , I tend to think  alot , please understand . LOL uhh!! I have too many to say .  Anw , get back to this , I am seriously piss off . Can you guys seriously fucking stop pm me or sms me saying that I have changed , yes I changed but do you understand the meaning of "people change so be it ? ", I am not good or whatever nonsense like I need a gf and all sort because SORRY I CANT HELP YOU AND I WONT WANT TO HELP YOU TOO , I am fucking piss about it , just stop , mai hong la . Thankyou uh . 

-Memories will never fade but the people that created them do .♥

 

Looking forward to tmr ;)

 

Dun only try to look for me later ; Cusz I wont be at the same place waiting .

Rmb ' I dun look back because whatever that I placed behind it's smth not important . Freak my back , til now it's still pain . Winkk , today went to meet Leeling & Jermaine at bugis ! By right shld be meeting at 1pm & me ended up going there at 4 . Ohman ,hehehe , next went to dessert house with Leeling and eat(YUMMYYY) ! Heehees . Laugh , Am I having PMS ? Been so down recently , not happy , deep down I am not happy but always I am laughing & smiling non-stop . What's wrong with you NICOTAYSHUYI ! I miss the time when I truly smile and laugh , when I am really happy . Ever since April my smile and everything was gone . Fuck2011 , fuck April , like seriously , what is this ! 

- I wished I am really happy♥

How amazing when some1 break ur heart yet u still love them with all the little pieces

Whathehell seriously wrong ! I bet yesterday was black friday for me , awww , late for work , icecream melt  and while working I fell down from stairs , til can see my spine and red line at least thankgod , we clear stock(Y) winkwinkk ;))  . Okays , let start everything for now . I dun understand myself how would you even understand me ? Idk what am I thinking or feeling , everything seem to be so wrong , not going in the right way , somehow I wished I am younger when I am younger I am happier .....  

 - His-tory , the difference♥

 

 

2010

Somehow , I look happier during 2010 than 2011 . Laugh , what a joke .

2011 , somehow you should be nothing .

Before 2011 arrive , everyone was saying that 2011 gonna be a better year , greater year than 2010 but that was just craps and shit . It's only 17/05/2011 , everything was already like fucked up , I am like at the losing end . I seen so many couples facing relationship breakup , all the broken promises , all the beautiful lies and all the scary side of people appear . 2010 are even better than 2011 , at least there are lesser problem for me . I dun need to face so much problem , I dun need to bear with so many things and people . I wont meet so many fucking people and so many fucking matter . I wont know so much and so I wont suffer so much . I HATE 2011 , fuck tis year , fuck the whole 4 month plus . Never ending problem , endless suffering . 6years of friendship turn out to be acting and lies , being close to you just to get popular , calling you bitch behind of your back acting close and good in front of you , being betray , people saying bad things about you behind , spreading bad things about you that are not real . Real r.s from the start til behind it turn out to lies again , broken promises . It's true that we break promise and memories break us but please its enough , I cannot take it anymore . Seen so many people breaking up ended up heart broken or being a heart breaker and I happened to be both ' ended up getting heart broken & ended up being a heart breaker . No much more tears left to be drop , no much more laughter to be hear , no much more good memorise to be share & to be spend . People around changed a lot , seriously a lot . More dark colours been added into 2011 instead of bright colours . More things tend to happen , more trouble tend to look for people , more people getting heart breaking . 2011 , when will you stop all these? All your nonsense , your pain , your nonsense , your broken promises , all these you have brought to people .

- Loved♥

Be strong !

Ello Guys ^^ How are you ?? LAUGHOUTLOUD ! Recently too many things happened , lazy say :X I hoped you keep your promises as in keep the things I have done for you as memories even though you once told me promises are meant to be broken but still please do me the very last favour , keep it . :) Hmmm , Have a good talk with ZhiJian ,  I guess , thankgod I am talking to him if not I should be crying alone le bah . I prove , show , wait my love for you , my love to you at the end , I am called a despo by you . Well , thanks a lot for that . If it was not for ZhiJian ,  I already cry le bahs , thank you for making me wake up from my stupid dream  . I realized You dun worth it at all this time gonna be the last time I post about you le :) I dun blame you uh :) You been hurt before , you been through all these b4 thats why you are now like this , I can understand but just dun do it next time kay ? It hurts , really a lot .  In fact , You made me stronger , I wont fall so easily next time round . You said , you already done me a favor by being friends with me , so ya , we are still friends uh ! I have already given up and letting go , so next time no one will annoy you or anything , dun be angry k ! Haaa , Study more , this year important year . Get enough sleep , dun always ton . Talk nicely to your mummy , dun every time like so dulan when talking to her , she meant well for you . What I said , i just want you to be good , so if you dun like or what then I am sorry uhs . Jiayouu for your studies and everything kays ! :D  03/04/20111039 is no longer a special date and timing le . Byesss .

Do you care ? Should I text you ? 10:39♥

Did you take notice of the sms I sent to you ? Did it make a different ? Why did't you reply ? Because its nothing to you or because you dun wanna face it ? For sure , I am gonna stay single , prove to you that , I can stay alone and wait for you . Ohman , I just feel like texting you but I cant . How am I going to stop thinking about you ? Stop missing you ? Today during CL paper , CB sial_|_ write til like give lover de and inside the passage is something I always wanna tell you and how I feel "可能对你来说我只是一个过路客“ It is like this ? Am I just a random stranger that took a longer time to walk pass you ? I hope nope , I hope that its not the fact . My CL paper was funny la , I know , What's more with this " 我会看你好多好多眼，因为我害怕再也见不到你了"  This sentence make me realized , I am not done looking at you , I regretted for not looking at you enough , not spending enough time and now I guess , even I want to look at you its only pictures ba. "我会和你说很多很多的话，因为我害怕再也没机会和你聊天" Wth the paper want from me right , I seriously dunno , I regretted not talking to you enough , not saying enough , not being talkative enough , not telling you enough , not telling you how much I love you , I am not done talking and I guess now I want to talk to you also not easy or maybe it will never happen again . Do you miss me when I miss you ? Does the second hit ? Even just once ? Is there any possibility to make you stay ? I am waiting but I am scared , if now I really stop contacting you , what if 21may world ending is real , I will leave the world with regret and I dun want it to happen . Can I text you ? What to text you ? How to text you ? Will you reply ? If you will , what will be your reply ? I am afraid , afraid of the cold reply , the cold text , I am afraid that you will dao me . I know , I am always scare scare scare , like humji yi ge but I dun mind being one . Should I text you ? Imissyouu 10:39♥. I loved you for 1month and 2days and I am still courting on , how long will this love of mine for you last ♥ 

Question "Sometimes , I just wonder , do you read my blog ? "

A smile for you , A thousand tears because of you .

Each time I tell myself not to care , the more I care ,  the more I bother . 

STSY ! 10:39 , WoAiNi♥! Laughh , can anyone imagine , the one you love all along , hugging another person and sleep , when you ask him , he was like"I want hug someone and sleep also wrong" It is hurtful enough ? Maybe that's guys ? As long as got girls jiu hao le , dun care where the it is the one they love . Or you still do love her just that you say you dont? Last time , you love her so much , it is really possible that you have let go of her? I told you , If you dun love you should not be jealous "If I dun love right" Somehow , does that means you love ? You jealous , does that means you still care? I told you not to look for him , we talk and talk about it until I told you I was in police station you told me"Dun get into trouble " when I told you everything was fine "Next time dun like that" Does that shows you care ? I know I am crazy but I rmb what I told jermaine and grace , if that is the case I dun mind going into police station everyday . I asked you , do you still love "say or dun say also dont matter" At least you never straight tell me , I dun anymore . Everytime , you have something in mind , you care , you mind , you feel insecure , jealous hurt or what , you just dun say , you just dun tell me , you always dun share with me how you feel , I understand why you dun wanna let me know but How am I going to  understand  you and know how you feel if you dun say? and we always ended up quarreling . I know you will not forgive me for hurting your brothers , I am bitch I have nothing to say other than sorry that I caused all these to happened . I miss you , The last time we talked was saturday night ba , I still rmb you look at me saying that I cant with your BIG EYES , haaahaa:) I miss the way you used to talk to me . Somehow , I just dun dare to look at your eyes or make eyes contact when looking at you or talking to you , I scare that i will cry , I scare that I could not control myself . I know you wont give me any chances anymore but its okay , dear , I am waiting:) I believe , if its meant to be , years later , still will get to be together , if its not , time will let everything pass . Trust me baby , I am waiting , waiting for you to be back .  I dunno for next time, for next month next year , next week , I only know , at now , this second this min , this hour ILoveYou♥, all I want is carry on loving you and be with you . Somehow , somewhat , I just wished you will be by my side now but I know its impossible , A wish is always a wish , a wish will never come true but I still wish you will be mine , laugh , stupid ist ? You stopped replying my text but what can I do ? Nothing . I dunno do you read my blog or what but everything i post its true . Haaa:) Jiayouu for life kayss .

 

- Hello , how are you le ? I know no matter what I do what I ask , I can never make it up the hurt and things I did to you but I am just sorry , I dun expect you to forgive me or what but still takecare . I believe you will find someone greater than me and everyone , you will find someone truly love you just that the right person haven come , the time may not be right . You can hate me if you want , I just wanna say , I did nt plan to hurt you on purpose , I never expect things to turn out to be like this . All I can say is I am Sorry . Duibuqi .