A smile for you , A thousand tears because of you .

Each time I tell myself not to care , the more I care ,  the more I bother . 

STSY ! 10:39 , WoAiNi♥! Laughh , can anyone imagine , the one you love all along , hugging another person and sleep , when you ask him , he was like"I want hug someone and sleep also wrong" It is hurtful enough ? Maybe that's guys ? As long as got girls jiu hao le , dun care where the it is the one they love . Or you still do love her just that you say you dont? Last time , you love her so much , it is really possible that you have let go of her? I told you , If you dun love you should not be jealous "If I dun love right" Somehow , does that means you love ? You jealous , does that means you still care? I told you not to look for him , we talk and talk about it until I told you I was in police station you told me"Dun get into trouble " when I told you everything was fine "Next time dun like that" Does that shows you care ? I know I am crazy but I rmb what I told jermaine and grace , if that is the case I dun mind going into police station everyday . I asked you , do you still love "say or dun say also dont matter" At least you never straight tell me , I dun anymore . Everytime , you have something in mind , you care , you mind , you feel insecure , jealous hurt or what , you just dun say , you just dun tell me , you always dun share with me how you feel , I understand why you dun wanna let me know but How am I going to  understand  you and know how you feel if you dun say? and we always ended up quarreling . I know you will not forgive me for hurting your brothers , I am bitch I have nothing to say other than sorry that I caused all these to happened . I miss you , The last time we talked was saturday night ba , I still rmb you look at me saying that I cant with your BIG EYES , haaahaa:) I miss the way you used to talk to me . Somehow , I just dun dare to look at your eyes or make eyes contact when looking at you or talking to you , I scare that i will cry , I scare that I could not control myself . I know you wont give me any chances anymore but its okay , dear , I am waiting:) I believe , if its meant to be , years later , still will get to be together , if its not , time will let everything pass . Trust me baby , I am waiting , waiting for you to be back .  I dunno for next time, for next month next year , next week , I only know , at now , this second this min , this hour ILoveYou♥, all I want is carry on loving you and be with you . Somehow , somewhat , I just wished you will be by my side now but I know its impossible , A wish is always a wish , a wish will never come true but I still wish you will be mine , laugh , stupid ist ? You stopped replying my text but what can I do ? Nothing . I dunno do you read my blog or what but everything i post its true . Haaa:) Jiayouu for life kayss .

 

- Hello , how are you le ? I know no matter what I do what I ask , I can never make it up the hurt and things I did to you but I am just sorry , I dun expect you to forgive me or what but still takecare . I believe you will find someone greater than me and everyone , you will find someone truly love you just that the right person haven come , the time may not be right . You can hate me if you want , I just wanna say , I did nt plan to hurt you on purpose , I never expect things to turn out to be like this . All I can say is I am Sorry . Duibuqi .