You know what? It only take you 0.07second to say ILoveYou ♥

HAPPY EASTER ! :D  How was yours ? Mine was great uhh! :D Enjoyed myself with E527 ♥ ! I was suppose to meet Leron at 2pm at the end , I reached at 3pm>< ! SorryLeron:) ! The drama was super great can ! I laughing crying through out the whole service ._. Silly me , cried suddenly just because I received a prank sms =.=" Fuck it man , should not be cheated so easily>< ! Thankyouu WENJUN♥ for coming all the way down just to pass me seaweed:) !  Heehee :) , Have a SUPER GREATTY TIME playing and talking with YUKIKO♥ , LERON♥ , EDMUND♥ , RAPHAEL♥ , CHINGYEN♥ of course with E527♥ ! FINALLY Meet up with MUMMY♥ , SABRINA♥ , ESTHER♥ , JIAHUI GF♥ ! Thank youu guys for making my day ! Loveyouu guys okayy , WINKWINK ;))  !  


Yesterday went to meet Leron(Y) ! Stupig , so slow uh.__. Make me wait for him at MRT station for so longgy , My whole life , the fourth guy that are late for meeting me>< ! Wang ban dan , tao yan si le ! Okayy la but overall I did enjoy myself with him:P And I make lost my wallet ! :( Left it at the toilet >< Sotong me._. Dun dare tell mummy :( ! Thankyouu kayys , for coming all the way down to Tampines and meet me(Y) ! Hehehe , xiexieni uh:) ! Same dp leh♥MAHAHA ! Dun so shy la!:X ! Always so quiet , wo bu xi huan !! :) Haahaa , I updated my blog for you le ! Happy ma ! Really stupig eh D: ♥


STSY , You taught me , never to give in 100% . After so much , I dk you blame me ma or what , but I dun blame you neither am I angry with you or what , just that , I felt disappointed . Hmmm , maybe I expect too much from you or for myself :) Seriously CB la ! Two different story , I am not stupid , I have brain to think kayss =.=" I dunno why am I still missing you , maybe seriously need take time to forget to let go uh . Remember , I did not break my promise but you broke it  , I love you but no longer am i showing it. I give up^^ I am tired le:) Heee , Sometimes I really wonder , why do we make a promise that should not be make , why do we still break a promise when the promise are already meant to be broken ? Why do we still love and hold on when we know that the person dun deserve it , the person dun love you ? Why do we forgive , again and again , no matter how many time the person lie ? Why are you still in my mind after so many things happened ? Why am I still crying over it when my tears are going to dry up ? Sometimes , when I think back , I was thinking , if on Saturday , I dun pms , suddenly go back to Church , I dun dixiao go to the stairs , will we still know each other? will we still be like this or everything will change? I never regret knowing you , never regret falling in love with you , never regret being together with you I just regretted for believing you too much , for trusting you with my whole heart. 明明知道，已经没有什么好留恋，好舍不得，好放不下，好去想的，可是为什么还是停留在那一瞬间？知道自己很爱过，有加油过，有试过，有坚持过，为什么还不想放弃？我真的只想知道，你有没有骗我？你到底有没有爱过我？为什么，你对我说的，每次都不是像你对人家说的？爱，对你来说，是什么？我知道，你被伤过，可是这不代表你可以伤其他人啊！你知不知道，你对人家的欺骗会造成很大很大的伤害？还是，像你说的，你没有，可是如果你没有，为什么你要对大家这样说？我知道再说什么也没用了，再想也挽回不了。我会试着忘记你，放下你的。谢谢你，让我开心过:)♥ 

I feel like giving up ; Yet I am still waiting♥ I missyouu

I am tired , tired already:(  I dun feel like moving forward , doing anything anymore . People get for you present , you still so choosy , Sigghh , I guess you dun even know much much effort I spent on it not just about the money but the effort , I brought at tampines but i went down to far east all the way alone just to apply the word "love" and the time we was together , not even a word of thanks , all I get is just"I dun like blue " Human have feelings , their energy will get use up , so will I , I will get tired too , I am tired already , I dunno what more I can do to prove to you other than waiting . I sms you , you happy then reply , dun want then dun reply . I have feelings , I will get disappointed , I will break down de leh , I am already , I am lost . I really dunno what are you thinking. Do you still love me ? Can let me know ? If you still do , then why still unsure ? cause of what , if you really love someone , why bother so much ? I thought , where the will get hurt or not , you will just want be with that someone you love .

 I suddenly have fear in relationship , I am so afraid , my sister just quarrel with bf , i thought her bf love her a lot but i was wrong , I see the way they are behaving , I am scared , I am terrified . Are you still thinking of her? You still love her it is? Do you still miss her? I am sorry but I just cant help myself to stop thinking , stop being jealous , stop crying over it. I just cant stop comparing , she is so pretty , you want her I wont be surprise . Someone told me , you will mind about looks and stuff , I suddenly , gosh , no hope . What's wrong with me? My life , My heart and you ? I need you so badly but do you need me ? Do you want me to be in your life ? Or I am just a passer by , a stranger that stay longer than normal only ? I suddenly realized that , I find that , I am not important to you , just a simple thing can prove it . Ya , to you , i break my promise I am sorry but so did you .

I bear with your cold shoulders , your cold sms not because I am okay with it , eh I am hurt by it too la but why , what can i do , because I love you what , then I bear with it la , I try to change for the better for you lo . I am not complaining or what but that's really how i feel , I dun want to rush you either but the way you are , your actions , made me worried , even more , day by day , i think even more . If yesterday ,  i never talk to pearlyn , maybe I have already give up , she really impact me a lot but I am just too far away from it . I wont give up , I will carry on waiting , waiting for your ans but still I am tired . Maybe I am fated to love you to know you but you are not meant for me? I dunno , seriously fuck my life . 

IMISSYOU , ILOVEYOU , INEEDYOU but where are you ?

Every little things remind me of us , how we used to love ♥

Where you now? What are you doing ? I have so many question to ask . Got vomit ? Really never headpain ? Take good care of yourself k . I wanna chat with you , sms with you but your sms short and cold  dao wo bu dong yao shuo shen me hao le ._.  I want to see you now !>< I want to talk to you , I want to feel your touch on my skin , I want you to kiss my lips , I want a hug from you , I miss youu . Baby , believe in me , give me a chance can ? I know maybe to you I have break it but I am seriously sorry . I am really terrified to lose you , I cannot afford to lose you  , I need you badly in my life to add in colours , to make me smile , to make me laugh . Do you miss me ? Am I still important?._. Can we start together?:)  If to be with you , I need to cut contact with people around me , I need to change a lot , I need to give in a lot , I dun mind , I really will , just tell me , I will try my best to do it , I may not make it but I promise I will try . Sorry that I break your trust once , forgive me can ? I may not be as good as her but I will do my best , try my best  , love you with my whole heart , give in , bear with , I will do if I can , even If i cannot , I also will try my best . Let me prove to you can? I really miss you a lot:(  !

K , I am off to bed now , nites everyone:)

我真的很爱你，回来好不好？♥STSY

To this someone , I am sorry:) Other than saying sorry , I really dunno what else I can do but I am just sorry. I hurt you in the end , I dun ask for your forgiveness but please dun go think so much . Dun compare k ? You have your good points , dun say that you are not good or what he is better , just that , my heart already belongs to him , he gave me the feeling when no one can give me , I love him a lot . Jiayouu for life and school k? I promise you , we still can be good friends:) You ask me out , I still will go if got friends joining:) I still will reply text , I still will be there for you . I am sorry for my silly mistakes and rush act that hurt you in the end , I know you love me a lot but I am just sorry, I really didt mean for all these to happen . Takecare k :)

STangSY

IMissYou♥ Seriously a lot :) Sometimes , when I miss you , I just wonder , do you miss me too ? ._.   I never want to let you go , can you be by my side forever? Because of you , I am willing to reject anyone , I am willing to hurt anyone , I know that's selfish but I dun care , I only care about you , I only love you , I only want you. 对不起，可能你受伤了所以才会这么坚持，可是求你，回来吧，回来好不好？回到我的身边，让我爱你，让我拥有你，好不好？可能我没有她好，还是什么的，还是我伤害过你，可是就给我机会名正言顺地去爱你，去想你，照顾你，爱护你，好不好？

10:39 ♥

Imissyouu,Iloveyouu,Iwantyouu,Ineedyouu ,  

Sigghh . 

What's with that ?

对不起对不起对不起，我只会说对不起，真的对不起，我不是故意的，真的不是。
我知道你很爱我，可是我真的很爱他，我忘不了他，不管他再过分不管他做什么，我就是爱他。
我真的没有玩你，我说过我们试试看可是我真的不能，不能不爱他，对不起。我知道我很没用，我很麻烦，我把你们给搞乱了。我只会哭，什么都不懂，对不起。我不知道为什么自己会这么爱他，可是，我真的不能失去他我不想失去他，他真的很重要。不要说什么你没有他好，你有，你比他好很多很多，只是我的心已经早在很久以前就放在他那里，拿不回来了。不管他做什么，我也没关系，我可以原谅，一直原谅，我只要他爱我。我知道，我把你们，把事情做得很难看。可是，我真的不是故意的，是我对不起你，可是。。你真的很好很好好到不能再好，只是我爱的人是他。对不起，对不起，对不起。不要说你不怪我好不好？我会更难受，我情愿你怪我。对不起，当作我自私吧。

我好想哭，你人在哪里？我很想你很想很想你。我不想失去你，对不起可是我真的很爱你。
Iamafraidoffeelingfade.

I am too tired to smile♥ ,

Should I give it a try and give you a chance? Maybe I should?:)

Honestly , Stuck between 4person , I really dunno how to choose and what to do . 

I dun wanna hurt anyone at any point of time .

MAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!CHANGED BLOGLINK BLOGSKINS !! I am loving i♥t

You break my heart and it is now broken . What you want more ?

Everyone is telling me that silent break is not good , I still tio say by your brother=.=" Sighhh !!! Fuckkyyy My life upsidedown la ._. !! Wth you want like seriously ? Be couple until like shit , I give up le , want be siblings you ignore , Ignore sms , Ingnore request , GO AND IGNORE ALL YOU WANT LA !! When we are together , you make me feel like I am not important , I feel insecure , you feel fan , you cant have a peaceful night , now you can have all you want what . You are the one that said I am your sister then I listed you as my brother , you ignore for fuck ? I sms you , you dun reply my msg . Now you can just go for her , go til how far you want , queenways , sengkang , you want go Malaysia also nth to do with me anymore , You done me no wrong , you are free from me . Now is like , I am single or what I dun even know , you just dun reply sms , The problem also end already then why are you still avoiding sms ?? I ended it because I want the both of us to be happy , I dun want to make things ugly , I want to talk crap , joke , play with you still that's why but if you carry on like that , then got what use ? You said you dun like stead to post on your wall then now we are not already what , o.O why still remove my post ? What you want , Can you just tell me ? Dun make me guess til my head going BOMB out can ? Yes , I admit , I still love you , I still cant let go but I give up on this relationship ba , I dun see a point in it . Can you just be like a guy ? CHeer up , facebook statues dun so sad le , If you put in effort , she will understand de♥ JIayouu :)) 

WINKWINK ;)) I AM SO LOOKING FORWARD TO RUSSELL BIRTHDAYY !!! :PP

Weak in the inside , Strong in the outside .

Been a long time since I blog . Hahaha , What is love ? What is relationship? What is happiness ? What are words you say when you dun mean it ? What is true ? What is giving when you receive is all hurts , lies , cheating . What's the point for two person to be together and ended like shit ? If you love her then go for her , dun tell me you dun , your friends and your facebook is already fucking obvious ! You miss her then go look for her la , you said that I giving you lj attitude , is you come out so many patten then I will give you attitude right .I never say you cnt miss her or what leh but is like you post on facebook so big , hello , i have eyes I am not blind , I cannot pretend I dunno anything , if you silently tell others I know I can pretend to be a blur sotong , you post all these you got spare a thought for me not ? You admit you miss her but you got no fucking feelings for her anymore ? wth you talking about ? You fill my heart with pain , eyes with tears , life with lies . You know that the reason we nearly break is because I saw the post but you like dun give a damm la hor , still keep on posting , I like your statues , you list me under your sister , you will run away ,  then run la run faster run far far dun come back liao la , if that is the case , what's the point of being together? You know how hurt am I not , i bet you dun . You say my skirt short , i make it long , you make me wait for you , I bear with it , you dun like girls make up , i go out with you that time i dun make up , you say my shirt the cloth too Little , i throw away i dun wear , you give me cold shoulders , I bear with it . If it was the past Nico , you think she will uh? wait long long jiu you la . I did so much for you , cant you feel my love? I dun expect you to buy me this , give me that , I just want you to love me like how much i love you i just want you to stop hurting me , it is that hard? Since you still love her then why be together with me ? In the first place , if you cant confirm your feelings towards me then dun ask me to be together with you . You said that you thought of me leaving you for another but now you are the one letting go of my love for her . At the end , you prove me right , you still cant let go of her , you still love her . At the end , you prove me wrong , I thought  I can trust you but no , your words are just lies . You know that I got read your facebook one then you still post such things , obviously you never even think of me when you post it , if I am really important , you do love me a littel , you still bother to care , you still treat me as your girl , you wont do such things because you know I will be hurt . Is now obviously the problem on you but you say til like is my fault , eh please la , you say you want peaceful night , I never say cnt leh , you just need to tell me , if I quarrelling then the person stop replying of course the next thing is spam la and force the person to face it la , if you are willing to talk to me let me confront you , I need do til so tough everyday spam spam spam ma ? need to the moment my hp ring then heart and there pump super fast at there thinking dunno who reply dun dare see msg ma . still nearly tio bang down by car , standing at the wrong side  , blurqueen the car driving towards me i also dunno . You make me feel that if she tell you she want you , you will just turn back to her and let go of me . If yes then say now , dun hold on to me just because you are not tgt with her . I do love you a lot a lot maybe even more than you can expect but I dun want things to carry on , like a never ending , please I am human I got feelings I will feel hurt , I am not cold blooded , I will get tired too , I am tired of asking and asking , maybe you did put in effort I can feel I can see it too but you are just making me feel that , I am your replacement of her . You still love her so much , what for be with me ? If you dun want others to know we together then what for ask me to  be with you  , just stay single la if so ma huan . I am tired of crying day and night , thinking of what to do where to go and my eyes is swollen but so what? You make me feel that , if I want break also mean nothing to you , Sometimes , I feel that I mean something to you , I am important sometimes you make me feel that I am just a passer by . I love you , the more I dun want to be hurt by the one i truly love , seriously la hor , very pain , I cannot take it anymore . What's now? You left me with no reply again , You posted on facebook such things , if that is the case , straight away tell me break tell me byebye la , why still drag on it ? dun be with someone when you cnnt even sure of your own feelings , dun make me fall so deep le ended up come out with so many patten . If you want break , You want let go of me , Please Just say if not stop doing all these , it is really hurting me . I love you really really a lot a lot , I want to see you happy , If being with her , you are happy then why not . Be sure of your own feelings please dear , if not next time , you will be the one suffering le not me le . I dunno what to say le . sigh . tears can you just stop dropping for awhile . Please? Thankyou for making me happy once , letting me be your girl once , letting me feel your love once , letting me heard your sorry once , thanks for everything , the love and pain you gave to me:) I love you but I guess time to end maybe , Jiayouu and if you really love her , then go for it la but  promise me dun break her heart , dun make her feel insecure dun ended up be like me , must be happy , the last thing you can do for me :) If you still want me then stop what you are doing stop hurting me if not must as well just end it .

I Still Love You No Matter What ♥ ! :D

 

- I am a normal human being , I do cry , mind , upset , care , angry , disappointed , emo , insecure , that's my weakness , that's my bad points but please forgive me because I love youu ♥I promise , I will try my best to change , change for the better , change for you . I am sorry but I just dunno why , maybe I am thinking too much , I believe time can prove everything♥!  

" I love you♥ ShawnTangSIngYang ! "

Korea"당신을 사랑합니다" 

Chinese "我爱你"

Japan"私はあなたを愛して"

Thai "ฉันรักเธอ"

- Please dun break my heart and never let this love of mine go , ♥

03/04/2011 10:39pm 

Please dun break this little heart of mine ~  I may be strong on the outside , I can take it to all cuts , bang  knock , fall , even bleeding blood outside I am always fine but I am really weak in the inside , I cannot take it to be hurt in any other ways - Protect my heart ♥ .   When I say "nvm" there's always a reason behind it . When I laugh til like really mad means deep down I am really upset . When I just say a word "okay" it is because I left with no words . I will feel insecure easily but please forgive me for that . I am sorry that until now , I dunno why , I can feel your love but yet still , I still cant believe that you really love me . I am looking forward to every min , every second , every hour and every moment that we are going to spend together . Last of all , I lovee youu♥