I want to be your star that shine the brightest♥

NicoTayShuYi
That's me . I talk loud at times like a microphone . I'm silly I talk craps & create nonsense at times . I hold on long enough at times . I cry easily at times I cry til like no tmr . I laugh happily til the next second I feel like crying and screaming out loud . I'm not who you might think of , I do keep things to myself , I do have secrets , I do feel sad but at times I just pretend tat I'm happy . When you think that I'm happy think twice ' look into my eyes but not listen to my laughter or look at my smile . I'm a super emotional person & I tend to think a lot , I screw up everything at times . You might know me , my voice , what I have done but you never know what I been through . Dun judge me . I'm friendly but I can be your worse nightmare either . Life's like a dick it get HARD for no reason , trust no bastard ; fear no bitch . Life is tough but always rmb ' when the tough get tough dun give up , tough time dun last tough man does :) Love is never easy . Easy to spell , easy to say but never easy to understand . Love is complicated but still we have to try loving each other bcuszzxx no one is perfect as we decided to accept others imperfection its when we decided to look beyond perfect . I'm loving people around me and ofcos my beloved 'Leeling , HONGYI ' a partofmyheart , AaronYang Add me on facebook to know more about me ! ;) I'm with this amazing guy name hongyi , looking forward to every moment with him(L)


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Friday, April 22, 2011

I feel like giving up ; Yet I am still waiting♥ I missyouu


I am tired , tired already:(  I dun feel like moving forward , doing anything anymore . People get for you present , you still so choosy , Sigghh , I guess you dun even know much much effort I spent on it not just about the money but the effort , I brought at tampines but i went down to far east all the way alone just to apply the word "love" and the time we was together , not even a word of thanks , all I get is just"I dun like blue " Human have feelings , their energy will get use up , so will I , I will get tired too , I am tired already , I dunno what more I can do to prove to you other than waiting . I sms you , you happy then reply , dun want then dun reply . I have feelings , I will get disappointed , I will break down de leh , I am already , I am lost . I really dunno what are you thinking. Do you still love me ? Can let me know ? If you still do , then why still unsure ? cause of what , if you really love someone , why bother so much ? I thought , where the will get hurt or not , you will just want be with that someone you love .

 I suddenly have fear in relationship , I am so afraid , my sister just quarrel with bf , i thought her bf love her a lot but i was wrong , I see the way they are behaving , I am scared , I am terrified . Are you still thinking of her? You still love her it is? Do you still miss her? I am sorry but I just cant help myself to stop thinking , stop being jealous , stop crying over it. I just cant stop comparing , she is so pretty , you want her I wont be surprise . Someone told me , you will mind about looks and stuff , I suddenly , gosh , no hope . What's wrong with me? My life , My heart and you ? I need you so badly but do you need me ? Do you want me to be in your life ? Or I am just a passer by , a stranger that stay longer than normal only ? I suddenly realized that , I find that , I am not important to you , just a simple thing can prove it . Ya , to you , i break my promise I am sorry but so did you .

I bear with your cold shoulders , your cold sms not because I am okay with it , eh I am hurt by it too la but why , what can i do , because I love you what , then I bear with it la , I try to change for the better for you lo . I am not complaining or what but that's really how i feel , I dun want to rush you either but the way you are , your actions , made me worried , even more , day by day , i think even more . If yesterday ,  i never talk to pearlyn , maybe I have already give up , she really impact me a lot but I am just too far away from it . I wont give up , I will carry on waiting , waiting for your ans but still I am tired . Maybe I am fated to love you to know you but you are not meant for me? I dunno , seriously fuck my life . 



IMISSYOU , ILOVEYOU , INEEDYOU but where are you ?

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