Fuck the reality

Hello , suddenly feel like blogging .

Ohman , meeting dear at 0530pm going toy'R'us with dear♥ Somehow suddenly I feel like going back where I used to go and have fun when I was still a young Innocent kid , the time when I was so carefree&happy , nothing knocks me down , nothing can make me sad than 3days , less heartbreaks , less breakdown . So what if I cry more when I was younger , at least I dun feel that hurt and restless than now . I remember you once told me you texted me perfectly , suddenly I thought of that . LAUGH , what the hell is fucking wrong with me right now . Honestly speaking , I dun even know who am I right now . Sometimes Im just forced to hold back my tears & pretend nothing took place , Im fine nothing happen but actually indeed I am hurt deeply by my love ones . I want to recall all the times I had when I was young , No sorrows , No lies , No cheating , No Hating , No heartbreaking , No hurting , No crap , No nonsense , No rubbish , No sadness , No studying , No fucked up moments . Suddenly crying til very badly , Suddenly thought of the past , suddenly thought of you , I feel hurt once again . I miss the old times & I know it will never happen again , neither can I go back . Im sorry for being weak , Im sorry bcusz I dun wanna grow up , Im sorry because Im still thinking of going back to the past , Im sorry if my mind is not moving on . Im sorry for crying . Im sorry for not being strong enough . See my smile at times ? Its been a great help for me to hide my tears , it been my mask for long . People says that "When life show you a hundred reason to cry , Show Life a thousand reason to smile . " I think about it and realized , I have so many many of million reasons to be crying and yet you are the one and only reason that make my smile , thanks a lot ILoveyouu♥ . For people that hurt me or hurt anyone , I hope karma will slap you right at your face before I does that.  Be mindful of your words&action , it may just hurt anyone unknowing . Be sure of what you want and who you love if not you ended up hurting more and more people . I hate the fact that you are still in my heart hurting me like hell when I still love you. I miss the time when we share secret to each others and meeting up for singing as well as gossip together . Please , if you wanna act , act it well dun let me realized you r acting one day . If you are gonna leave please do it forever . If you are gonna find me annoying please never look for me again . If you are gonna play please make it a nice game & end it nice . Because I wont be the same anymore even if my heart does .


Conversation with dear , 
I want go back to the past , 
Hao de I will help u get back to young kid tat time hao mah ! <3 Bu yao tears le la Hug u !<3 
But young kid that time dunno how think .___. Hugs (L) 
Nvm , u dunno hw eat I feed u , u dunno how to drink I teach u how to drink <3 


Guess what , Bby boy , you make my smile once again♥